After the bus incident yesterday, my husband and I had a talk last night about our situation.  We both have this feeling that we aren’t getting much from life, enjoying much of life.  He feels that we just do a lot of work and running around.  We aren’t involved in much, we don’t have time (or most times finances) to do the things we want to do because we’re always doing things that we feel we have to do instead, the list of things we have to do keeps growing without end, we don’t take vacations, stuff like that.  There’s nothing exceptional in our lives, nothing we’re passionate about.  Do I have to even say ‘with the exception of my kids?’ Ok, I truly mean that.  Otherwise though, not much going on here.  

I am more of the restless type.  I think that it’s our location that is causing me problems.  I have literally spent my entire life in this state/town/house.  It is my OPINION that Algonquin, Illinois has very little to offer.  I’m not packing up the house or anything, but I have a deep dissatisfaction currently, and totally would if I could.  My decision NOT to move far, far away is certainly influenced by the economy and job market, I’m not gonna lie.  I love this house, I love that it’s near my family, I enjoy seeing my friends when they blow back into town to visit their parents, but I feel like something is missing here.  I can’t put my finger on it.  No, it isn’t retail.  Algonquin certainly has plenty of that, and apparently the village trustees are always looking for more.  

My husband thinks it’s because we aren’t involved enough in the community.  That may be true, but my argument to that is that there isn’t much here I’m interested in being involved in.  I’ll be fair and say that maybe I haven’t looked very hard.  Or that perfect cause that will really light a spark hasn’t presented itself to me yet.  I also feel that this is a suburb WAY more than it is actually what I would call a community.  Everyone is too busy driving a million miles an hour to get to Target to worry about creating or being a part of a community.  We’re just as bad, don’t get me wrong.  We spend all of our time and energy working, commuting, or working on the house.  Of course there is some level of satisfaction in doing a good job at work, and when the projects at the house are completed and turn out nice, but not exactly the type of life satisfaction we were looking for.

No resolution to this one, just something we’re kicking around here at Frank Manor.