At the end of last week I realized that my Dr. had told me to expect a call in “about a week” with my follow-up test results and I hadn’t heard anything. I tried not to think about it too much because really I didn’t want to call them and appear to be a total freak who doesn’t understand the concept of “don’t call us, we’ll call YOU.” I also didn’t want to risk ruining what I expected to be a pretty good weekend in Madison. I pushed it out of my mind, because test results or not, I could just as easily ruin the trip with worry as I could with the wrong answer from the doctor.
The tournament was fun to watch. Ultimate frisbee is fast and furious if nothing else. The weather was miserable to experience, low temperatures and rain. My shaky, shivery dog will attest to that – the shaky, shivery dog who barks incessantly when left alone in a dry and heated hotel room, that is. This weekend was really my first experience bonding with other sports parents. Miserable conditions will bring people together, apparently. Beer at dinner may play a part in that as well. My husband is my favorite accessory in social situations, because he is outgoing and funny, and he breaks the ice while I observe and consider and wonder about everything going on around me. It’s kind of cool the way we’re balanced.
I took tons of pictures which are still trapped in my camera. I don’t want to try to upload them until the current photos on the computer are backed up to our external hard drive (most already are, only the more recent uploads aren’t backed up yet), just in case. I am stop-loss paranoid, and therefore assume that the computer will crash at any moment (even though it’s a Mac, some habits die hard). I am also worried about the backup drive crapping out, and plan to get a 2nd backup for the backup. Does that make sense? Our external is NOT an Apple product and I (and the hubby) just don’t have much confidence in anything else anymore, really. Maybe I’m brand brainwashed.
When we got home Sunday and brought in the Saturday mail, there was a letter from my Dr.’s office. My test results were NEGATIVE (!!!), and although I have to go back in 6 months for another re-test, it was quite a relief. I don’t like hearing a doctor say the C word multiple times prior to a re-test for anything, honestly, and it made the waiting extra nerve-wracking. This coming from a Nervous Nelly as it is. So once again a scare, followed by an all-OK. This is turning into a pattern that I don’t really enjoy so much. My one complaint, even in the glow of a good test result, is that the Dr. could have called me in a week as promised (which would have been on Thursday) and saved me four days of fretting. I’m so over this.
Along that line, I have a new book in the pocket of my car door (which is the equivalent to the night-stand for normal people). Creative Visualization by Shakti Gawain. Already 110 pages in, I really like it. I think it will be helpful in making my path. Give it a go, if you’re so inclined. You have to commit to keeping an open mind, but what use is a closed mind to you anyhow?









