The word hate doesn’t exactly fit in to the new positively positive B’s lifestyle. Dammit, because I do hate lots of things. Like the day after my birthday when I have 364 days until I get special treatment again. It’s all “back to the grind” and reality BS that I don’t care for so much. Oh, and the fact that I had serious middle of the night insomnia last night and so this morning I look like I actually did age a full year overnight on my birthday. That is some total and serious bullshit!!! I did deviate from my regularly scheduled day yesterday. I did NOT work from home. I just decided that working at WORK was enough for my danged old birthday. I stand by that decision. I had a great day, and night. I did think about the Westie both on the way to and home from work as expected, and no, I did not get a trip to Colorado as a gift to buy a new one. *Sob* Whatever. I like tent camping, and I have a really nice tent so it’ll do. I think I just miss the old days, and my old self that went along with it sometimes. Back when I actually followed the Dead. And I had unlimited amounts of free time and energy and a really cool car, or two. I had SOOOO much fun, all the time. I was always surrounded by friends and when I wasn’t working a FUN job, I believe my job was to laugh my freaking head off because that’s what I spent my time doing. And Boom Ball, but that takes too much explanation. No responsibilities? Check!! Don’t get me wrong, I love responsibility. Well, some of them. Two or three of them, anyhow. The rest can all go to hell. I think what I’m looking for is a melding of the old and the new so that I can relive some of the what once was with these new people who make my now complete.
When I got to work, people actually knew that it was my birthday, and there was cake and I had cards on my desk, which was very thoughtful and nice. It always floors me when people buy me a birthday card, because I am the absolute LAST person to give a greeting card. I’d seriously rather tie my money to a balloon and send it adrift. The boss of me (not to be confused with the mini boss of me) gave me a gigantic bar of chocolate, too! I got hugs and lots of “happy birthday”-s and then I worked. I tried to concentrate and work hard, but maybe I didn’t work quite as hard as I normally do. I am going to give myself this one break because it was my birthday. Overall it was a good day and still quite productive. I brought my cards home for CC because there were lots of dogs on them for her to cut up and reuse in other artsy type projects. I only had to pull myself out of negativity twice, and I was totally provoked, but I kept my cool and all is well.
So today is when my big roomie starts telling me “You’ve got a birthday coming up….” any time I want or say I like something. He does it every year and thinks he’s hilarious. It makes me crazy, because as I mentioned I have a super long list of stuff I want. Right now though, I have nothing to want, because CHECK THIS SHIT OUT:

Pre-margarita ride.
That’s right people, I now have the sweetest ride in town. New to me old 1960′s era Schwinn in Purple (!!!) with a cool after-market basket on the front to boot that detaches so that I can skip through the meadow filling it with flowers. That is if there is any room with all the baguettes we’ve purchased at the local market. Right. My plan is to torture my ferocious beast and make her sit in there. Hubby thinks I’ll crash and kill her, and is reconsidering his decision to buy me a two wheeled bicycle rather than a three wheeler. Whatever!!! Dogs like putting their head out of the window of a car, she’ll love it once I get going, right? Yes, it was a little scary last night after I had had a couple of margaritas and rode around in the dark, but I didn’t even crash in that condition, and she didn’t fall out and I plan on being completely sober the next time. It would help if she would JUST SIT DOWN, but she’s so small that even when she stands she’s 100% inside the basket. I believe that she just needs a princess pillow to sit upon, which of course CC and I plan to provide, and we’re right as rain!
I’m sure it will be perfection in motion.